discussing kink, e-stim, a bit emotionally intense
regarding the whole setup though, me reading a text and receiving a shock when I got something wrong, there was one specific thing that amazed me.as far as I could tell, the shocks I was receiving weren't on the highest intensity we've tried in the past, they were manageable, and I didn't perceive that intense pain was the target of this situation. but still, at some point further into it, I started to really struggle to be able to continue reading. and I don't mean "the stress of the situation was making me struggle even more with the pronunciation", I'm talking about: I read in my mind what was next, got a confident idea of what I had to say, and still, I opened my mouth, and was unable to start speaking.
even when I consciously felt ready and confident enough to continue, I was just unable to, and it took actual effort to do so. it was a very intense experience.
