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27 Clichéd transfem. Poly cuddle slut. Nonsexual little. Frequent meower. Kinky pervert. I pee myself a lot. I reject my own dignity.
I contribute code somewhere, but I forgot where.
I like to be referred to as "kitten" or "little one". You can do that if you want and it'll make me happy but it's not a requirement (also don't use the latter in adult contexts)
formerly @me@elizabeth.cat
"a pervert who lost control over their life"
Location
Europe
Birthday
1999-03-02
Pronouns
they/them (EN)
Pronounsthey/them, although fem terms are also good
kink, service, power exchangeI reject having full control over my life. I surrender control over big parts of it to my Miss. and yet, that is still one of the few things where I actively decide myself to do that, where I keep control. she doesn't take anything from me, I offer it to her. and her deciding to accept it is a gift that I should cherish and be grateful for.
Miss asked me to express why I do this. that question brings to my mind many thoughts about how happy it makes me and the pleasures it brings me... and yet, it's difficult to truly discern one specific reason for it.
it feels right. it is what I realize I am meant for. I trust her. I feel I can trust her. it makes me feel so many new things, and discover so much about myself.
serving my Miss, making her desire my own, seeing her accepting my submissiveness and my obedience, and being immediately able to understand how they work and how I am going to respond to it... it makes me feel so connected to her. there is barely any moment left to question why I am doing it when it feels so natural, so comfortable, and so good.
this is actually a... more complex question than I thought. even if I do... I can't find the reason why I do. I am not meant to be clothed, so... reasoning it, maybe I shouldn't
kink stuffso many conflicting thoughts. I was going to post that obedience by itself isn't anything without reasoning. but... that's also not quite right. Miss asks of me to stop thinking. she knows that I'll do what is right, because it's how she has observed my mind works, without me needing to overthink anything
kink stuffit's such a weird situation to be in where... I keep seeking to serve Miss' desire, and yet, doing so just superficially might end up in conflict with something so fundamental in our dynamic as it being something that brings us comfort and calmness
