kink, emotional sadism
I like the idea of putting my kitten through physically and emotionally challenging situations to endure.They are driven by a desire to serve me, to obey me. Their will to satisfy all my demands and desires is important in their life and their self-perception. And while yes, this is a very beautiful thing to experience, it’s also an insight into their mind which allows me to do various interesting things. Because in the end, I am not interested in someone who just silently serves me. I want something interesting to play with. I want to push buttons in their mind, sometimes gently, sometimes bluntly. I want to make them feel the power that they have given me, in a way that makes the most out of our wonderful connection based on trust and a deep mutual understanding of our very similar ways of thinking.
Their motivation to serve is a very powerful driving force to do things. But what happens when I put up a roadblock in front of them? I can set them up for failure, and make them realize that some things are just out of reach for them. This is an easy way to create a lot of vulnerability - something that I’d love to explore for even more intense emotional play.
Or, I could make them try. Try to go through something very challenging. Of course it’s not a big deal if they don’t manage to get through it (at least in situations where I genuinely rely on their open communication to stop it at the right moment). But I’d still like them to try - for me. And I want them to stop for me as well when they need it, because I expect them to take good care of themselves. I want to see them struggling to endure what I ask of them, for no other reason than the fact that it’s me who is asking it of them. I want to see them trying to balance those conflicting instructions.
All of these things are slowly entering some extremely intense emotional territory, and none of this would be possible without a lot of communication and very deep trust - and without the knowledge that we’re both extremely excited for this
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