kink, reflecting
sometimes submitting can actually have some apparently unintuitive implications. for example, how I try to avoid offering help with things to my Miss. she knows she can have my help, she just has to tell me. and I wouldn't want to take away from her the opportunity to order me something.today I made a mistake with something in a similar sense. my Miss gave me permission to use my diapers, but because I had not changed for a while, I leaked a couple droplets. I quickly cleaned it up, without saying anything, I guess feeling like what happened was wrong and trying to not make it a nuisance. but it was the wrong choice.
I should have told her. I should have let her tell me what to do about it. I shouldn't have taken away from her the opportunity to rejoice in my embarrassment and humiliation.
feeling humiliated or embarrassed in front of her is always the right thing for me, and any decision that ends with that is the right one. I should never try to avoid it.
letting her feel and make use of my obedience to her is always good, it is what she deserves. and I should allow myself to enjoy such a gift.
feeling like I've failed or did something wrong is something for her to judge and determine how to correct. her judgement will always be truer and more meaningful than my own.
I should stop thinking, stop worrying. she knows better than me. she gets to guide me for a reason.
I'm grateful to have these opportunities to learn and realize my true place in this world. I'll always put all my determination into it.
thank you for giving me all of this, Miss. it feels good to let you shape my mind around you.